Sex & Me

I've just get laid, with other guy. I thought that that was what i wanted but after the whole experience, i don't know what to think...it almost grossed me out. I don't know if it was the dude that i was sleeping with, whose hideous by the way, or the fact that maybe I'm just not gay...i wasn't turned on in any minute(except when he was sucking it), my body was there but my mind wasn't around.

According to me, I'm gay, but this chapter could change the whole view of myself, i don't know what i want, but I know for sure that is not that ugly dude... maybe a girl? we'll see, only time will tell...

I HATE being 19, everything is so blurry.

New Year...Valparaiso!

Finally, NEW YEAAR!!!! im going to the coolest city here in Chile to celebrate, Valparaiso! It has a bohemic vibe thats just awesome and new year's party is in every corner, in every street! so much foreign people, bands, bars and music, its the perfect place to be...for me :D

oh, and fireworks are AWESOME...

This years Xmas...a new pop icon appeared: killer santa!!

I was shocked when i found out that not even Santa Claus could be trusted!!, imagine those poor kids, what are they going to think about xmas everytime they see an image of their family killer in all the coke cans!!

its kinda cool in a creepy cold way, the image of pure good is now befouled, turning the kids hero into a vile muderer..whats next... a terrorist in a easter bunny costume?? id love that..

I know what my halloween's costume is going to be about..

RockPop star...everything is still a blur

My first post is about...music

I want to write about the song Blur, by britney...dont close the window, im not a britney fan, but i like this song...just this song, REALLY.

Why?...the thing I hated the most about ms spears (beside her voice) was her bubbly image of a immaculate virgin that could do no wrong, all dressed up in pink and mashmallows, etc...a doll basically.

Then the meltdown came and she gained a bit of rockstar groove, but all in an uncool way, making rockstars look like ...britney?? (britney= annoying voice+ little musical talent+ shallow songs+hot body)

Then this song reached my ears and i have to say, im liking the image projected here. the song is about her real life, no soothing words or happy beats, just a regular day before her recovery.

it goes like this...

Turn the lights out,
This shit is way too fucking bright,
Wanna poke my eyes out,
If you wanna mess with my eyesight,
Just let me get my head right,
Where the hell am I?
Who are you? What'd we do last night? Hey, Yeah, Yeah (x2)

(Chorus)
Can't remember what I did last night,
Maybe I shouldn't have given in,
But I just couldn't fight.
Hope I didn't but I think I might've,
Everything, everything is still a blur

This is a real artist , this is the american dream turned into flesh, this is how fame looks like without makeup, this is being famous and the only way to deal with it alone, cant believe that fame was so well drawn by britney...never thought i'd say that...wont happen again...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MJLdxf2EC4I&feature=related

listen and judge...

Setting the record straight...birthday

happy first birthday blog!!

I really dont think anyone will be intrested in this blog, ill use it just for letting my thoughts out, if i find someone that thinks like me, likes what i like or smart enough to post a good comment about the things ill be writing here, ill be impressed, as i dont have any kind of expectation for this...enjoy ;)